I'm not nerdy....I'm...wordy

I'm a week out from my last treatment and I'm almost back to "normal" now. This 2nd cycle has had it's differences from it's predecessor. It takes a few days for the annoying symptoms as opposed to getting over them right away. The day after chemo, which is a Thursday, I've been okay, a little loopy from the meds, but my body feels pretty normal. Then for the Friday, my mood darkens a little, but I'm still able to go for a walk or move around at an acceptable level. Over the weekend is when I find the difficulty. I get so sore from the meds. My body feels bruised and incredibly achy. I can't have people touching me during this time; even a hug hurts. But let me set the record straight on that; it only lasts for a few days, this doesn't mean you can't hug or touch me at all! I go to hug some people and they back away saying I don't want to hurt you! I know that a lot of my friends are reading the blog and taking every single thing I say on here to heart, but if I'm going to hug you, then it's not gonna hurt me, hope that makes sense. As for taking everything I say to heart, please understand that at the time you're reading an entry, I may not be feeling the same way I was when I wrote it. This has made for interesting conversations with people in my circle over the last few months. Some get very angered by something I've written and want to talk about it, but by then I'm over it. An example would be the mountain man at work who commented on my weight. I still get calls from friends about this. I have to laugh about it. I tell my friends that they can't now get angry about it; it happened months ago and they're just now reading it. I joke to them that maybe they should follow my blog a little closer to real time then reading an entry a month later and then wanting to react to it. I am a very emotional person, and I travel the highs and lows of the roller coaster very quickly, but then I'm over it. So if you're reading something I've written before, it means that's how I was feeling right then, not necessarily when we talk. A notable point about me writing about all my friends etc., is that the people that are closest to me (outside of family and some select friends) don't really read this blog. It's more acquaintances or people I don't even know that have given me the most feedback about my writing, isn't that strange? I started this off with the reasoning that the people close to me would get all the dirt through this channel, but that hasn't been the case. After I posted for the first time, one of my friends called me and said "Omigod! Your blog is my new facebook; I've already read it all!" I laughed as I knew there was no way this particular friend had the attention span to have read it all the way through by that point, and I was right. She thought that there were only 4 entries as she thought that every month had one entry. We figured out her mistake one night over wine when another friend and I were talking about something I had said on here, and she had no idea what we were talking about. We were bugging her to just admit she couldn't read, but then figured out she could in fact read, just couldn't figure out her keyboard. (Love you Julie! :D)
I am in no way admonishing my friends for not pouring over this blog. I totally get it. My closest friends already know everything you are now taking the time to learn about me. They don't find the blog that intriguing as it's extremely time-consuming to read I'm sure, but also, they talk to me on a regular and aren't really surprised or shocked by anything they'll find here, or the manner in which I relay the stories. Most also don't want to read the detail about my cancer. It's easy to filter to the certain friends when I speak with them as I know them well too, and know what they'll want to hear and what they won't. On these pages, there are no filters and some don't want to know what's on the next page. I absolutely get and respect that. However, don't make the mistake of telling me you've read all my blog as you should know me well enough to know I'll test you on that without you even knowing I've done so just to prove my point to myself. I get a lot of internal kicks that way. Okay, now I have a forum for this, I have to address that point since I'm on it. Does everyone do that? I have little games I play with myself all the time for no other amusement than an internal chuckle. Everyone does this, right? Like what I just said about testing my friends. Then you lay the trap that they fall in to, unbeknownst to them, and then you chuckle about your own cleverness to yourself? Is it just me? The key to this game I've learned is never to share your findings as then you could be proven wrong, and since it's an internal game, it's better to keep it that way and have yourself win every time. Here's another fun one that I'll share with all of you devoted blog-readers. If you've related at all to my personality, this'll be a fun game for you. Basically, if you think this game is incredibly entertaining and you use it in your life, then chances are you do understand my personality and have laughed at most of the jokes and deadpan humour through reading these entries. If not, then you probably haven't enjoyed reading my words and think I'm angry and aggressive and take most of what I say as literal. That's okay too, but you may not understand how anyone could think this game is fun. So those of you should simply just be cognizant of someone using a word you've just used in a sentence right after you've used it, just to see if you find that happens a lot now that I've pointed it out to you. The rest of you who wanna play, here it is. This was shared with me years ago by an old friend and I have previously been very selective on who I choose to share this with but the people I have shared it with have reported back that it works and they love it! It's called worddrop. Think of a big funny word, use it in a sentence, then wait for the person you've said it to to use it back to you. Sounds stupid, right? It's not. It's amazing how this works and even more amazing that it's pretty much guaranteed once you've fine-tuned your ability to drop big words in a sentence and be sure they know the meaning of the word to be able to use it back to you. It does take practice. You may not drop the word correctly for the other party to pick it up, so try some variations and see what works for you. Start off with a certain simple phrase. Like, how was your workday? Oh, I was just "pluggin' away." It should work that the person you said it to will use it back within a certain amount of time. When you hang up from that conversation, you may hear "Ya, gotta go plug away at the dishes," or something to that effect. I started by sharing this with my brother I think. It worked for him too. I didn't really want to share it with Shawn as I thought I preferred catching him doing it and laughing to myself, but I much more enjoy our current game of trapping friends into it, or what is now more difficult, each other. But when we do catch each other we kill ourselves laughing and it's big points to get one over on the other with this game. We both don't like to be so easily manipulated but it works! With each other though, at this point we've up the stakes. We use words like conducive, copacetic, lackadaisical, etc. The words that don't come up in normal conversation and are more dramatic, yet recognizable when reused. There is no way of saying 'I always say that!' with those types of words, which gives the winner even more bragging rights and has the loser thinking "I'm so sure I just used hyperbole in a sentence!" This must seem so ridiculous to some people, but it is truly a fun conversation starter and you can play this by yourself. No one ever has to know what you're doing unless you share it.
Look, I enjoy my own company, and it's because of things like this that keep me entertained internally. :D